its 22nd of february 2008 today..a day in tis whole yr which only belongs 2me..which s so special 2me..which happen ONCE in tis year..its a special date 222..i love numb 2 aso of today..2 represents u r not alone,u r not 1 n only..bt u hvin sum1 bside u accompany u pas thru up's n down's in life..2 represents u hv two choice to choose which gv u mr chances mr varieties mr advantage compare to 1..2 represents 1 person combine wif another person bcums 2person in unity..2 also represents one single person wif another single person n unites bcum a sweety lovely xinfu couple..22/2 represents..my bday!im not a famous person,im not a special person in tis world..im jz a simple young gal who jz turn 18 who jz started a brand new life over in australia who faces diff ppl diff environemnt,learnin to b independant who misses al her family relatives frens n..*him* especially over in msia who hv lot hopes dreams n wishes in her life..a simple gal bt special in d eyes of God + family + frens + *him*..22/2 s my burfday,d day which i was given birth fr my dearly mum's stomach thru operation,around 1.38pm i thk..dun reli rmb wat time dy,haha~its charis ng waon xin's bday today..its a hapi fun wonderful day bt i cried for reli longs hrs..since it passes 00:00 on 22/2!

aw~it so cloudy gloomy here in melbourne today,it even rains jz nw!i jz hope,lovely bright sun would jz glimpse n shine towards me thru d muffy fluffy blackie clouds!cz i kinda nd it nw..to jz shine away my sadness n hurt n painsss n most importantly my cries n tears..my eyes s reli tired n exhausted..im beggin to my tears to stop fallin fr my eyes..bt dey wouldnt listen,its seems like dey r connected to my heart,cz i cry even badly inside my heart~ dey jz naturally flows out fr ur heart to ur eyes as u close ur eyes..dey jz simply mk ur pillows teddy wet..dey jz simply mk u use lots n lots of tissues..dey jz simply mk u cant even zZ eventhough u tried vry vry hard,u r vry tired bt u stil fel awake til 6 in d morning..dey cn jz mk u awake again after u slept for around 3hrs only..dey jz mk ur eyes sox2 sad sox2 tired sox2 exhausted bt..u jz cant zZ..u jz..cant sleep even huggin ur favourite pillow n teddy..dey jz mk u hide inside d blanket n cry without sound as u worry dat ur bro might hear dem~ dey jz mk u wanna cry out loud when it comes to an extend dat..you cannot tk it anymr..and in coincidence your brother is not there..you REALI cry out loud to ur pillow wif tears falling out like river fr ur eyes..tissues r jz everywhere in ur room..tears s jz everywhere..tears even..fall right now while i writing tis..dey jz like d rain today over here in melbourne..a lil tiny smal rain..den stops..den cums again wif big rain..n stops..n cums a moderate rain..jz goes on n off~ u jz..cant stop it..u jz cant..

im hearing a song at colonel's profile in friendster~ i love dat song,cz it jz kind of accompany me rite nw at tis moment which im alone crying here infront of d laptop..its a song which reli means lot to me,which its so sweet so nice til u wil fal in luv wif it..its a song which s send by sum1 most important in my heart to me..its a song who shows me sum1 feelings towards me!

..........im blank nw in mind,cz i duno wat to write sumore..cz im crying badly nw~ pls do forgive me lil eyes..i duno hw to control my tears!i hope my frens dun realise abt my eyes later..cz i reli crying for LONG HRS..n u cn definately imagine hw my eyes looks like nw!hm,i jz slept around 3hrs..vry tired..whole person tired bt u jz cant fal zZ when lyin on bed!wandering hw am i gonna do my presentation later durin d music workshop later in college..i wil jz *smile* to everyone later..im gd at acting i thk,so i thk i cn jz lie everyone without letting dem knw my situation~ bt..later im goin 2 hv diner wif my frens + bro for my bday..hw m i goin to hide my eyes my tears?wel,mayb on d way walkin to college,d cold wind n moody clouds would blow me afresh n stop thkin n crying..i hope so~ reli wana thx my dearly parents who ask me to bring afew frens together to hv a diner,dey wil pay 4 d bill!dey ask bro to sign credit card,aw..i love my mum my dad..dey reli love me lots..

hm,i might jz go find thgs to do~ like clean up o oters..jz nw i cooked lunch for myself,n i cn jz stop crying for a while while cooking..its a gd idea to find smtg to do..bt haha,based on my experience u canot ask urself to study at tis moment,cz it doesnt workds..it might works ABIT..hm,wel..jz go find thgs do nw..i reli duno hw im gonna gv a break for my tears..wandering..